Saturday, March 08, 2008

leap day: the day i turned into a witch

lj entry 6th march:

"... is feeling perpetually guilty over pms day, in which i threw blow after blow of acid and poisonously snide disparaging remarks and looks at the poor boy despite him treating me like a princess that day and buying all sorts of things for me. i'm an evil bitch la ok. i think it wouldn't even be half as bad as this if i was pms-ing with angry outburts. the last time i rmbr being this nasty to anyone was only those times when kargea decided to show how much of a racist dumbfuck he was and all i wanted to do was bring him down and just shut him up for good. at least that was deliberate. this is just....i. don't. know. what. happened argh. fuck la these bloody hormones what the fuck is wrong with me..."

and that folks, was the day sherwin took me out to celebrate our anniversary (22months) and take me to the movies to watch 'leap years' on the opening day. that movie i was dying to watch and which was the first movie i ever watched on opening day itself. the day he walked all the way back to his house to get my watch for me.

he's still ignoring me, or at least malas nak layan or something. hasn't answered the calls or sms or online msgs since the end of that day. siighs my first big pms blowup ever and it had to be on that day. that very day. the only clues as to his feelings is his msn nick, and yesterday night, his name wasn't even in jawi (i taught him how to write it)anymore like how it was when i sent him a sry msg. there's ups and downs to every relationship...i guess that was finally my turn to play the wrongdoer huh?

yea and what an ugly turn it was.

Posted by s t a t i c at 4:12 PM